Feeling Good

I am feeling so good. Today I got a calling in my ward. I am the new FHE group leader. It feels so good to have a calling again. My roommate Kelli and I were talking about how important it is to think positively, and I am working on that this week. Especially with all of my tests, projects, and work. I will do it with a good attitude and reward myself with a road trip home this weekend! :) So excited.

Getting Rested

So this week has been CRAZY! I have had so many tests, projects, classes and work. I love being busy, but I was so glad to have this morning off. I got to sleep in til ten, shower/ get ready for the day. I did the dishes, vaccumed the apartment, studied for my test, cleaned my room and put my laundry away. It feels so nice to clean up and to get a fresh start before class tonight and studying for my big test tomorrow.

Those who can't do, assist, and then work harder.

So tonight I had my soccer game. I'm not gonna lie, it was... well I wouldn't even say it was frusterating because it didn't even feel real. Back when I was younger I used to have nightmares about this. I used to have dreams that I was running and couldn't go, couldn't kick the ball, etc. Now that I am older apparently, it becomes reality. I shot so many times, mostly with my left foot, and nothing would go in. As hard as I tried to get it I just couldn't. I have thought a lot about this, what I can learn. Even on the field my mind was racing. I think a lot of it has to do with coming home from my mission. I feel like that is how my life is. I see what I want, and as hard as I try I can't get it. Then you say, okay, are your expectations just too high? Do you just need to work harder? Well, tonight I worked as hard as I could and it didn't come, so then I think, When do I ever play soccer anymore? Never. You have to practice and beat at your skill if you want to get good at it. That is what life is for me. I will never settle for less than being like my Father. He wants me to succeed and that is why He sent me here and gave me a Savior. I need to realize that I won't be perfect right away, but I do need to understand that I can improve as I don't give up. Just like in soccer, if I practice and train myself I can become a skilled player, in the game of life! haha jk, but for real. This still has a lot of kinks to work out in my head, but I'll pray about it. Ponder it some more, I'm sure more thoughts will come, and I will know where to find you. ;-) Until then, remember who you are.

Hey Hey Hey!

This has been a great week. I have hung out with a lot of old friends and have learned A LOT! I think this is a growth time for me, and of course with growing comes challenges, but none that I can't handle. I just need to be patient with myself and my situation and work on getting better little by little each day.

Program Applications

Well my application for the Elementary Education program is in. It was a lot of work and a lot of stress, but I got it in with a few hours to spare. The technology tests were not fun, but at least my friend Nate was there to coach me through. I find out in 3-4 weeks whether or not I got in. I'm pretty sure I did, but I still need to pray hard. I really hope this works. After I turned in my application I was SOOO excited! That must mean that this is the right course for me. I have wanted to be a teacher since I was a little girl, and now it is finally becoming a reality. I am so grateful for this wonderful opportunity to learn at my dream University.

Live and Learn

Wow this adjustment has been such a roller coaster! Mostly good, but it can be hard sometimes, trying to figure out where I fit in the world, what dreams to be pursuing, etc. I am realizing that God really does want us to be happy, but it doesn't mean that life is a piece of cake and that we won't get beat up along the way. Hopefully by time I die, I can say that it was a hard journey, but that I was faithful to the end. At the end of the day, no matter how hard it was, I know and love my Heavenly Father. I trust Him.

Laker/Jazz Game

I went to the Laker/Jazz game last night

with Jake Saunders and it was sooo fun! We had seats in the front section. It was so amazing to see the players that I watch so much on TV so close in person. The game was so close and I am pretty sure at least a third of the people there were Laker fans. haha We got progressively louder as the game went on, and at one point a drunk man started yelling at me... that was fun. lol We won in overtime and we saw Elder Perry. All in all it was great night.